As of yesterday afternoon John and I are officially no longer surrogate parents. Jesse has moved out to a semi-boarding / semi-flatting arrangement in Papakura. This is much more sensible for her as she was travelling about an hour each way every day to get to work.
So that means we are once again on our own.
I noticed the peaceful feeling almost immediately. Not that Jesse had been particularly rowdy, well no worse than any teenager, anyway. It just seems to me as though a part of me has relaxed and is at peace.
On reflection it is probably my brain letting go of the 'worry' and background thoughts that come with having another person to be concerned about.
On the whole I am looking forward to being at peace again. But I wouldn't trade the experience for anything. It has taught me a lot about myself, my strengths, my weaknesses, and it has clarified my view of parenting. It makes me admire even more the strength of character that I see in my friends doing great things with their kids. And it makes me a little bit madder at those parents who don't make their kids their number one job in life.
But that's a whole topic on it's own, and probably just as controversial as politics or religion !
In a semi-sarcastic nod to my own tendency to want to have everything 'under control'…
"For peace of mind, resign as general manager of the universe."
– Larry Eisenberg
Love & peace to you all.